what can i do now?

tis few day fall sick jor...
is ok tis not the reason....
dunno y feel tat some ppl really....
when speaking did not feel others feeling...
ok tis maybe u all wil say tat...
宽容心not enough or 小气.....
but tis thing happen to me again n again....
n every tim i try to relax myself but it wil become more serious....
why u all wanna lik tis?
to be a friend forever i already giv up many thing jor...
i try to change myself oso but seem lik..........
haiz......
y i always feel lik doing something i lik tis a fault?

why?! why?! why?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

maybe is i not smart than them....
i knw i not vry smart.....
wat can i do........
wat can i do=(
y after i sick all the thing wil become more worse than before?
if all of this is my fault i wil try to change.......
why i always didnt hav the chance...
why!!!!!!!!!!!
what can i do now?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
arh><